happiness: a nonsensical post.

a friend once accused me of depending on external things for happiness, and suggested i should find my own happiness.

i have been dawdling about this for a while - specially since this friend was someone i looked up to. to be honest, i felt pretty shitty/downright inferior/kiddish. i guess it hurts more when someone you thought understood you, throws it in your face.

real friends are honest with each other. real friends are there to point out your faults and give their input to help you fix things. real friends should criticize and take criticism well, but not to the point of making the other person feel inferior. then again, it is my fault for taking comments to heart.

i talked to someone older about this issue, and she quickly brushed aside the self-happiness comment saying that MOST people need external factors (money/friends/booze/music/nature/internet) to stock up on happiness. i could go on and on with this external factor list hehe.

true enough, if certain friends of mine did not have a life partner/family close by/a best friend/something stable in their lives, they'd be quite complicated and messed up (as they accuse me to be).

HARUMPH!